Monoxide

Hello darling,

The night you left
the car ran for hours
it made up
white noise for me to sleep
to, the cat curled in your empty
space- where I thought you
were.
But where I knew you'd never
come to lie down again.

The fumes came up
through our floorboards,
through the windows
and walls. Everything
open and breathing for you.
For you, 
the trees were swaying-
and for you I sang
in my sleep words
scrawled on your hands
and arms.

You left the car running,
but I didn't wait up,
never knew you hadn't come
home, in the driveway
with your arm out
the window,
cool as you tried,
cigarette limp in your
fingers.

Waiting for the journey to begin.